My sister got my husband and I a baby journal, which I've begun to fill out. In the pregnancy section, one of the pages asks us to write a letter to our child.
I started thinking about it, and as far as dreams for my daughter, I've having a tough time seeing past the things I want for her immediately--to be born full term and to be healthy.
It hit me that over the past few years, as I've focused on getting pregnant and then on staying pregnant, my hopes and dreams have been in terms of myself--how I see my life, my self-worth, my time line. I think a lot about the choices I am making, you know, breastfeeding, choosing a changing-table system that will be comfortable and simple for me, figuring out help and family visits . . . to make my life easier. But as far as the baby as an individual, not so much thought.
Whether I'm trying to protect myself or just self-centered, I'm ready and need to begin thinking of her as real.
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