Even though I'm decidedly pregnant, I still feel a tinge of jealousy when I hear that others are also expecting--especially if it's a second child, especially if they conceived their first while I was TTC, especially if their due date is around the same time as mine. Maybe it's old habit; maybe it's a fear that my pregnancy won't actually result in a baby; maybe I just don't want to share.
To be fair to myself, it's just a tinge--a moment from which I can think rationally and then move on. I don't feel upset or angry--more annoyed. But I do wonder--will I ever be able to let it go?
Don't be too hard on yourself. This is all so normal. (((HUGS))) It's great that you're being honest about how you're feeling though. Not many can do that!
ReplyDeleteIf you are anything like me then the answer to your question in a big, fat NO. I haven't been able to let it go. I'm as bitter as I ever was when it comes to non-infertile bellies and babies. I hope I can let it go one day, but for now, it's still here with me.
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